So it turns out I have to pack up my life and move my stuff back to my Mum's house in less than a month. I cannot afford to pay rent and dragonslayer doesn't work/won't work so thats the way the field lies.God I've got such mixed feelings about the whole thing. I mean on one hand it will be good to go home so that I can save and get a home cooked meal every night and not worry about some of the stuff that has driven me insane the past few years out of home. But at the same time I spend 10 minutes in my mother's house and the entire dynamics are enough to make me go insane. My sister and my Mum bitch about each other behind their backs to me when the other one is just in the next room.
Not only this, recent developments have shown that there will be a fourth person in the house permanently (my Mum's boyfriend) and my sister's boyfriend is there all the goddamn time as well. So I will be going from basic solitude where I can walk around naked to constant chaos with people I'm not all that comfortable with.
The thing that is probably bugging me the most is that I don't want to get rid of any of my stuff. But this house at the moment is full to the brim with crap I don't really need. I AM A HOARDER. Where the hell am I supposed to put my couches? I have about 15 coffee cups and draws full of utensils! Close to 100 books and a butt-load of records.
All this aside, I know the one thing that I will miss the most will be having someone sleep next to me every night.
I feel so cheated! I didn't even get to have a summer in this house. Oh well, it was good while it lasted. I guess I should have a party or something?
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